Monday, January 17, 2011

Diabetic Watch For Sale




E 'happened yet. E 'success because it was either because he could. It 'happened because is there a way for me to be one not to break in two. It 'happened because I still believe and I should stop doing that. But I'm alive, and so long as I know that I will continue to do this to me and make me do this. And all in all, I do not want to die today. No.

break in and lose every direction, in no longer feel any wind that fills my sails, the unreal situation of silence and stillness I shed leaves in the sun without water, but no thirst. I could not write anything in this post, let everything becomes blurred into a muddy and incomprehensible stillness, but I have to get up early, because no one can pick up from where am. I can not give my cardinal points. I hurriedly pushed in one direction without being able and willing to learn the way back. I hoped that the road does not serve, only to realize that simply is not a road. And now that everything lies in ruins and shattered around me I try pieces that can not be glued. I do not enough the thick of every single thought. Every picture, every piece is a time to take it tested, because to stop feeling bad in one place, you sometimes need to hear some more. I could also put to relativize, but sometimes worth it to send also Einstein to fuck off ...

This can be clear only to me. Yet I do not care that it does. While his fingers slide over the keys, while the screen becomes a dull moment, as I wrap the white silence of an evening at home, I demand of myself a promise to get up tomorrow morning. Yet I am leaving this evening to let me feel once again that it was me and that I was true, without deceit, without pretense. Taking out the good and the bad of a common soul perhaps, but a person who does not want to leave behind the regret of not trying it until the last to be happy, to be complete. Remorse to myself and to others, but kept it jealously for future reference ...

Again, as in my best tradition, I have not found an answer to the question: "Why not?". I should probably look better this response. But perhaps I would not have found, however, alone. We wanted someone to give me that answer with her because I think I'll never know. One day all this will vanish, even the memory becomes a tired synapses connected to who knows what else and who knows what other ties. But I know that day is not so close as it should be ...

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